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yuck. I got a letter today addressed to "Emily Stallard" yuck yuck yuck, it makes me feel so dirty :(

I haven't had a title in a while

I feel like writing something intelligent and involved and therefore somehow pretend, not only that I've been totally selfishly ignoring the fact that they're KILLING BABIES in Lebanon, but also that I've not spent about one half of the last two days feeling nervous, excited and grinning, about 47% a little more morose, but sort of happily morose (and there's one point involving some bayliffs, bay-leafs and a game of hide-and-seek that I won't go in to right now, but it was fun).
But I have been and it was and I like it.
I don't really have much else to say, except I miss everyone! Ben's leaving tomorrow night and I'm all alone in the flat till sunday.. I'd much rather be in the company (or arms...embrace...etc) of others, but I suppose I have the rest of my summer booked up with not-not-being-with-people activities, so that's ok. Hopefully it will be good, I could do with a bit of good-ness, even if it's slightly scary and undeserved.

anyway, love y'all

oh, and:

My pirate name is:

Calico Ethel Bonney

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Often indecisive, you can't even choose a favorite color. You're apt to follow wherever the wind blows you, just like Calico Jack Rackham, your namesake. You can be a little bit unpredictable, but a pirate's life is far from full of certainties, so that fits in pretty well. Arr!

Get your own pirate
name from piratequiz.com.
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www.piratequiz.com
Tee hee, the questions are funny ^_^

sick to the stomach and trembling... with surges to the heart... it's amazing how little we can control our bodies sometimes
[it isn't illness :|]
still, mustn't keep hopes up, eh?



smile everyone! you're worth it!

Israel is bombing the fucking suburbs in lebanon.
THOSE ARE ORDINARY PEOPLE THEY'RE KILLING
120 dead since wednesday at least
1 2 0
plus at least 12 israelis from hezbollah attacks
the israelis say the hezbollah (lebanese terrorists) were made in syria - so i suppose we can guess where the next attack is headed.

Mum says it could mean the start of world war 3, eventually.

fuck.


http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/world/middle_east/5185624.stm
(vaguely israeli-biased, but at the moment, I don't think I can face the news from the other side)

if it would only stop so I could stop feeling so fucking guilty about not doing anything about it
AND so that INNOCENT, ORDINARY people can STOP being murdered and carry on with their poor lives.
life is beautiful, but never all at the same time.

if this is in breach of copywrite then let me know (and y'know, we can take it outside and work out our differences through pummeling and whatnot)

I like it, anyway.

yeah, like, go to www.assemblingadventures.blogspot.com and come on some adventures
with LOTS of people and lots of fun and nice things and not too much organising and lots of love n that